I wish...

Some of the latest happenings in and around me makes me wish that the time machine stopped in 1998 and never ticked ahead. I wish I was never exposed so much to this world. I wish I never came across my current crop of friends. I wish I never lost the charm that many said I possessed (If you think I am blowing my own trumpet, correct your thought. I do not think I am). I wish I never lost the innocence which I believe I possessed. I wish I never lost many of the traits that made me stand out of others. I wish I can enlighten myself about the root cause for all these. I wish I had not behaved the way I am these days. I wish I am able to think from my brains and not from the heart. I wish I was born a Libran just during these phases. I wish I was not haunted by such cluttered thoughts, a deluge of emotional swings which only I can proudly flaunt. I wish the reasons for all these die with me. I wish I did not boast such attributes that makes me a not-so-affable personality. I wish I return to my normal being soon. But I guess that will be difficult. Maybe I have seen the last of my true happier self. I wish I prove myself wrong. I wish the time machine stopped in 1998 and never ticked ahead. I wish...I wish...